hollygo-litely

My teeth clench down my lips sealed tight my eyes downcast You asked to much of me, I should have known my inability to lie, my voice shakes, my hands rolled up in my sleeves Please God don't let them look me in the eye I pray you betray yourself I pray you rise up from your cesspool of selfishness This should be YOUR downfall how did I become this listener of deceit, how did my shoulders come to bare this weight A fool, you think me a fool Your fool Call it what you will, but I have betrayed my own sense of morality and honor with the silence you demand I guess you could say I love you more then you love me, because I would

Background supportive to the picture, descriptive to the time and place Lighting behind, in front, but never the picture of Microphone device in which you use to amplify and scream out your Verbal demands Stage my back in which your stomp and dig in your heels of selfishness You never see me clearly,my voice you can't pick out in a crowd,my wounds you are oblivious to, because you can't see past yourself. It must be difficult to be you, so consumed with your desires, so lost in your reflection.  The world will always leave you unsatisfied. The people around you will fade with time, your demands to much to bear, your self-centeredn

With my skilled yet shaky hand I hold my rage Just a scratch at first Getting longer with every swipe While my emotions rage My strength grows I loose my self in feeling My grip becomes more fearsome The scratches become slashes The skin opens just a little The sting is just so sweet The burn holds steady and clears my mind My rage becomes ecstasy with the pain No longer wanting to hurt the one who has hurt me No longer feeling jealousy, hate,  or fear Instead joy, bliss and MY happiness floods my sole My tears of  anger become tears of relief My teeth no longer grind My lips have relaxed and stretch into a smile And when a